I have a mind that’s filled

With hatred, angst and melancholia

I’d rather you just left me here

I feel afraid to speak

Enter or exit

God help me

I treat myself as you would

A thief or like a caged animal

I weep.

I utter three words

One for the mess in my head

One for the horrible thoughts

Which come howling on my skin

Fee fi fo fum, now I’m ugly

And now I’m dumb

Here I lie

Tears in my eyes

Why would you look at me?

When even I can’t?